So I, like, won something (and am really fucking surprised)

Remember how last week I begged you to vote for me in the RWL Awards in a rather undignified fashion? Well, you lot granted my wish and I actually won.

I’ll admit I’m shocked. My category was strong as fuck, and I never expected someone like me to win. I’m aware I’m scary and weird and basically blog about why everyone else is wrong except me, so I’m massively surprised that people are OK with that. That people actually agree with me, and appreciate what I’m doing. I honestly didn’t think that was the case. I expect what I do to make me unpopular, a lone howl of rage into the abyss.

I started blogging for me, and for me alone. To get the fury I feel at the world off my chest; to cathartically spit fire to save me from punching things that oughtn’t to be punched; to shout, however ineffectually, against the dominant narrative. I’ve never really expected anyone to be even moderately interested.

That you are, and that you support me means a lot to me. I can’t quite believe that anyone cares what I have to think, but I appreciate that you do. It’s been fucking bizarre for me, seeing this level of support, seeing what I can do to help in the tiny little way I can, shouting ever-so-slightly louder against the dominant narrative. I never expected this, and I couldn’t have done it without you listening to me.

So thank you. Thank you for listening and supporting, no matter how quietly. Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone in my foul-mouthed anger. I’ll keep doing what I do no matter what, but it makes things so much easier knowing I have you all by my side.

11 thoughts on “So I, like, won something (and am really fucking surprised)”

  1. You, and other people like you, challenge me to be awake and aware and to take notice. And to speak up when I don’t like the things I notice. By going out there and being active and protesting and, yes, shouting; you ask me if I am as loud as I feel I should be. Your activism challenges my lazy couch potato existence.
    That’s not always comfortable, but it’s a good thing. And sometimes it helps me to consciously let go and not care about a thing because the world doesn’t go unchecked without me. Because there are people who keep shouting even when I need a break.

  2. Congratulations. It is not just your righteous anger, but your clearness of thought and expression, your humour, and the compassion you show that make you the fantastic writer you are..Reading your stuff has challenged my prejudices and made me more aware of the nature of injustice and patriarchy. You certainly deserve the win and I hope it is the start of other kinds of recognition for you. Good luck

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