Dear carceral feminists–or, whatever you want to call yourselves,
You all say that you are against exploitation of women, so I am dearly hoping that you can help me with the predicament I’m in–and, to be honest, I’ve been in for much of my adult life. See, I’m fucked. Completely and utterly fucked.
In front of me, I have my latest payslip. I work four days a week–eight hour days (with an unpaid hour-long lunchbreak)–at London living wage. The mathematically-minded of you may have noticed that living wage is calculated based on full-time employment, and therefore a 28-hour week on living wage is kind of unlivable. For the last year or so, I’ve just about made ends meet, because untaxed it averages out as just under a grand a month which can cover my bills and rent and food and travel. Not this month. This month, you see, I have hit the point where the government decide you have earned enough to start nicking a cut of your money, and therefore, with NI and income tax, I’ll be taking home less than £700 to cover my bills and rent and food.
The sharp-eyed among you might have spotted that the second time I listed my expenses, I didn’t list “travel”. This is because this problem has conveniently gone away–in the most inconvenient way possible. See, tomorrow is the last day I’ll have this job before my contract expires and, being unable to afford to keep me on in this horrid economic climate, I will be boarding the merry-go-round of unemployment once again.
I was unemployed about a year ago, just before I got this low-paid and precarious job. Do you know how much being unemployed sucks? Have any of you ever been on the dole? Because let me tell you this: the less-than-700-quid a month I have is significantly better than the 70 quid a week you have to jump through hoops for. And I’m one of the lucky ones, because at least I’m old enough to claim the stuff that might just cover my expenses if I’m incredibly creative and don’t mind not eating much more than baked beans out of a bowl. That way, I should be able to afford the bus to the JobCentre.
Did you know, in my line of work, the number of applicants could be up to triple figures? I’m considering putting a gender-neutral name on my CV so I can at least increase the chances of getting a job interview. I already use a more traditionally-British sounding surname because research shows that that improves your chances. Perhaps I just need to work on making myself prettier: apparently that helps, too. I have my own style, but I’m desperate. If it helps, I’ll gladly fluff myself into patriarchal ideals of beauty. I have to eat, and apparently this is what the industry wants from me.
I suppose I could go back to what I was doing before I got into campaigns work, but I am loath to do that. The work was poorly paid and truly exploitative; they played upon gaslighting us into thinking we wanted to be there. Sometimes, the work would take such strain on my body and my mind that I would have seizures. I got given a pittance, but I had to pay to be there! Imagine that, paying a fee to work! The whole ideal had been sold to me on a lie, and I was trapped in their by the continued lie, and it took every ounce of my effort to exit.
And now I am an exited academic. I warn people like me, fresh-eyed and eager, bouncing with the romantic myths about that line of work. I tell them the truth, that nobody could be happy doing that (if they say they are, it’s probably false consciousness stemming from brainwashing into liking a line of work valued by patriarchy). It’s exploitation, pure and simple.
So what can I do?
Sometimes I consider journalism. I can write quickly, and I can write well, and I have a good follow-base already. As I understand it, I am above and beyond the level of qualification for a comment journalist. The thing is, I really don’t want to do that. I don’t want to sell the most intimate part of me to the highest bidder. My mind is the essence of me, far beyond my body, and it is not for sale. I don’t want my thoughts and feelings to be transmuted into my bread and butter, forced to write and think and compromise myself lest I starve. Sure, some defenders of the industry might say people can consent to doing that, but I’m not so sure myself. How can anyone consent to selling a soul?
Like I said, I’m pretty good at campaigning. I can turn this stuff around quickly and I’m bloody good at it. Fuck it, if any of you want to hire me, I’ll strategise your campaigns until they’re something even I’d participate in. But, unfortunately, even that wouldn’t help at the moment. Because that’s the thing, carceral feminism. You’re blinkered at the moment, not opening up your campaigns to the linked struggles. Sex work isn’t exploiting women, work is. The worker-employer relationship is always exploitative. And it goes double for women, and then piles on the second any of us face intersecting oppressions. Ultimately, I’m better off than many: I have no kids, I have white skin, and I can hide my disability until the ink is dry on a contract.
I think, carceral feminism, that all of these women can be saved. We want to be saved. We need support from you, with all of your resources, to focus on all work, to support all struggles, and to strive towards the complete destruction of capitalism. Let us be. Let us grow. Let us not have to break ourselves over and over.
I am asking to be rescued, and I hear you like rescuing women. So please, please rescue me.
12 thoughts on “Rescue me! An open letter to carceral feminism”
Bravo. Capitalism is</em exploitation. Something I (and others) have been arguing for years. Sex work is work, and work sucks. Even if you enjoy it.
The solution is, of course, a free and equitable society. I'm an anarchist, so that'll do for me…
What are carceral feminists?
As with any belief system, it’s best explained with cats http://carceralfeministcat.tumblr.com/
That didn’t really help me tbh, but I looked it up myself and it doesn’t seem like “carceral feminists” is a thing outside of that tumblr, so that’s probably why. It seems to have given you a good opening for this blog, but beyond that it doesn’t seem like a useful term. That may explain why I was mostly confused by this blog, as I’m not sure exactly what it is you want from these people? You want them to “rescue” you, with their “resources”(?), but you also want them to “let [you] be”? Can you clarify?
Here’s an answer that demonstrates that they are a thing outside of tumblr. It was the fifth hit on google when I searched for “carceral feminism.” Granted, the first two were carceralfeministcat’s Knowyourmeme page and tumblr, but all of the following hits are academic or at least journalistic. It seems like you weren’t looking very hard…
Click to access Sandbeck.pdf
You are far too honest, and it never ever pays especially in the UK.
Are you sure your tax code is correct? Should go to ten grand tax free in April
Yup. Basically went over that by about four quid.
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Sorry to hear that. : (
Also re your tax code – are you on Week1Month1? (It should be shown on your payslip) Basically it means that instead of paying a ton of tax in the last two months, you’d pay a little each month so you at least get the same amount of money the while tax year. Contact me if you want more info @sullenhearts 🙂
AWESOME! Very well said!